Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Because I'm Ms. Brightside

I know I promised that I'll try to be a positive thinker for the most part and find fulfillment in whatever I have now but I can't help recognizing a similar sentiment in this book I'm reading (and it isn't Twilight!).

The waitress brings his coffee. Takashi adds cream, clanks his spoon around in the cup, and drinks.

Then he says, "To tell you the truth, this is the first time in my life I've ever wanted to study something seriously. I've never
had bad grades. They weren't especially good, but they weren't bad, either. I could always get the point of things where it really mattered, so I could always manage with the grades. I'm good at that. Which is why I got into a pretty good school, and if I keep up what I'm doing now, I can probably get a job at a pretty good company. So then I'll probably make a good marriage and have a pretty good home... you see? But now I'm sick of the whole thing. All of a sudden."

After Dark, Haruki Murakami

Well, I look at life as if it's a really long road trip. At one point it becomes tiring, wearying and discomforting but it's a whole lotta fun when you're surrounded by the people you love. Maybe it'll be helpful for me to forget about the destination for a while, and just enjoy the ride. I'll get there when I get there. But get where exactly? I don't know.

If people ask me how I see myself 5, 10, 20 years from now, I'll probably be able to give a rather good answer because I'm good at coming up with answers to anticipated questions (haha). 5 years from now I'll be 30, living independently, enjoying a successful career, about to start a family with a good blah blah blah

Truthfully, though, this is the only answer I can come up with right now: I don't really know where I'll be XX years from now but I'm pretty sure my life won't suck because I won't allow it.

How's that for positivism? :-)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Love Hurts

It's 2 a.m. and I'm not even sleepy at all. anyway, don't be fooled by the title. this post has nothing to do with love.

just learned that Incubus' song Love Hurts is somewhere in the top 10 of billboard's modern rock chart this week. HELLO! That song is from the Light Grenades album and it's 2 years old.

It's also one of the band's suckiest songs in my opinion. Having that song out makes them compare more with bands like the click five or boys like girls rather than the foo fighters or audioslave. Having that song also makes them unfit to play european rock festivals (which they've been playing every year). As if the crowd needs more reasons to throw stuff and boo them. they should leave the whiny, cheeseball songs to the new bands.

How can you play right before Metallica or Rage with a song that goes "Love hurts but sometimes it's a good hurt and if feels like I'm alive... without love i won't survive".

Heck, I'm finding it hard to believe that this songwriter is the same one who wrote Megalomaniac.

Brandon, may I have a word with you?

haha ang hindi makatulog, nag-rant. I just hate to see my favorite bands deviate from the very reasons i liked them in the first place.

although there's really nothing we fans can do if the band we like wants to take another direction. they're going to find new listeners that will appreciate their music and we can turn attention to other bands as well.

Monday, November 10, 2008

crap crap crappy!!!

PLDT DSL sucks! I swear! in the morning, up until mid afternoon, connection is perfect... fast and then come night time, it just stops. so what if I'm this close to finishing my downloads? i'll try apain tomorrow?

i need my internet in the evening!!! it just doesnt make sense, lalo na pag weekdays because nobody's home during daytime to use the Internet. Wtf naman kasi. ugh.

(via mobile)


Anyway, here's another something from Pareng Chuck:

"When you go out with a drunk, you'll notice how a drunk fills your glass so he can empty his own. As long as you're drinking, drinking is okay. Two's company. Drinking is fun. If there's a bottle, even if your glass isn't empty, a drunk, he'll pour a little in your glass before he fills his own.

This only looks like generosity."

--------> haha may kilala kong ganyan! and I'm not referring to myself :-)

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Hysteria is just impossible without an audience.

I imagine myself being photographed in a studio.

The photographer in my head says: Give me patience.


Give me control.



Let me tell you a story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world... well, not really.

*9 deleted paragraphs later*

I actually went out of my way to see how she was and asked if there's anything we should improve on to make things more efficient. She went to say her piece and I offered my perspective, too.

Afterwhich, I said, "I hope you understand where I'm coming from." And this girl I was talking to said, "No. I know where you are."

So now there's an issue? Well, I think I'm too old for your issues. Save the drama (for your mama).