Monday, May 14, 2007

I'm baaaaack!

It's been exactly 7 months and 8 days since my last post. It's been really hectic for me lately, with a supermassive product launch (not just in Manila, but also in Cebu), and a spanking new and surprisingly demanding account :-) But here I am, updating this thing for the less than five people who visit and take an interest in my life (dogpaws, you're one).

Honestly, you could say that I'm a pretty outspoken person. The people close to me would always hear about how I feel and what I think so there's really nothing left to ponder on and thresh out in writing. And when I do speak out, more often than not, I am not really seeking for advice. I just want someone to listen.

I'm going through this phase they call quarter life crisis periodically. I could be on it this week and out of it next week. It's when you feel like you've not done enough or are not doing enough to make your life meaningful. It's that feeling when you think time is flying fast, you're getting old and running out of time to make a difference. It's like when you're sleeping and you can't seem to find the right position in bed. You see other people about your age become so successful and pursue their own passions, and you become a bit envious. How come other people get to do what they enjoy and become successful? I guess I'm getting a bit restless (but definitely not bored). I don't know what I want but I know what I don't want. Thank you, SML, and my buddies, for helping me get through this.

I was just recently on a vacation in Boracay and on our last day, during one of those 'alone' times when I lied on a wooden beach bed staring at the breathtakingly crystal clear seawater, I realized one simple thing: I am okay. A lot of people go through worse in life. A lot of them have bigger problems than what I have but they still manage to be happy. I was watching a group of young boys who stayed by the seashore, frolicking under the sun and suddenly, everything seemed so simple. It's not bad to aspire for something greater and bigger, but we should not forget where we are now and all the blessings that we received. After all, everything happens for a reason. If we just learn to appreciate even the simplest things, then we'll come to realize that life is good. Soooooo good.

Funny, after I made this realization, my boss, who sat beside me, suddenly asked: Na-relax ka ba, Joy? It took me 2 seconds to say: Yes. Super.

And then I made another realization: after all the work, stress, and pressure, all I needed was a moment at the beach, with nature, and I'm ready for the world again.