WHERE I've been spending my time online

So it's been a while since my last blog post and clearly, I haven't gotten over the Twilight mania then. Well, I have now! Thank God! And after reading the books again and again, I realized that they weren't written that well. Not just grammar and style-wise but the whole thing like character establishment and what not. The only thing that probably got me hooked was (yeah you guessed it) Edward Cullen's character. He's such a dream. I can't wait for the next two movies (make them better, please!).

I'm online most of the time either via mobile or computer but the reason I haven't been blogging the past month is because... I didn't feel like writing. There's enough stuff online that kept me preoccuppied like surfthechannel (thank you to whever thought of this), justjared / perezhilton, and facebook. Most of the time was spent on surfthechannel because I was catching up on episodes of TV shows that I missed.

Now that I'm done catching up, I'm back here wasting my time. My blogs are not so much for whoever is interested to read them. They're actually for me. I like looking back, reading previous posts and remembering that time of my life when the posts were written.

I used to keep a journal when I was younger, only they didn't contain chronicles of my life but essays on whatever I was thinking of during that time. I just found the one I had in 1999 when I was cleaning up my stuff in the attic. I realized I used the word WHY in a lot of the titles. I had entries there titled, "Why I think Erap Wouldn't Make It," followed by, "Why Kevin is the Best Backstreet Boy." The last entry in that journal was an essay I submitted with the ACET application in response to a question included in the forms. The title: "What I can contribute to the Ateneo." Hahahahahaa! I didn't fulfill my promises. I didn't contribute anything! The society is not in a better state now, even when I'm already done with my Ateneo education.

It's not over yet, though, until my last breath. Who knows, I might do something really life-changing for myself and for others in the future... then again I could be too lazy to even bother. Hahaha

OMFG. Guuuuuuuuuh.

1. Shooting Twilight (around April - June 2008)















2. Promoting Twilight (around November 2008)

3. DECEMBER 2008

Ohmygush (gush talaga!) Love the new hair! :-)

Because I'm Ms. Brightside

I know I promised that I'll try to be a positive thinker for the most part and find fulfillment in whatever I have now but I can't help recognizing a similar sentiment in this book I'm reading (and it isn't Twilight!).

The waitress brings his coffee. Takashi adds cream, clanks his spoon around in the cup, and drinks.

Then he says, "To tell you the truth, this is the first time in my life I've ever wanted to study something seriously. I've never had bad grades. They weren't especially good, but they weren't bad, either. I could always get the point of things where it really mattered, so I could always manage with the grades. I'm good at that. Which is why I got into a pretty good school, and if I keep up what I'm doing now, I can probably get a job at a pretty good company. So then I'll probably make a good marriage and have a pretty good home... you see? But now I'm sick of the whole thing. All of a sudden."

After Dark, Haruki Murakami

Well, I look at life as if it's a really long road trip. At one point it becomes tiring, wearying and discomforting but it's a whole lotta fun when you're surrounded by the people you love. Maybe it'll be helpful for me to forget about the destination for a while, and just enjoy the ride. I'll get there when I get there. But get where exactly? I don't know.

If people ask me how I see myself 5, 10, 20 years from now, I'll probably be able to give a rather good answer because I'm good at coming up with answers to anticipated questions (haha). 5 years from now I'll be 30, living independently, enjoying a successful career, about to start a family with a good blah blah blah

Truthfully, though, this is the only answer I can come up with right now: I don't really know where I'll be XX years from now but I'm pretty sure my life won't suck because I won't allow it.

How's that for positivism? :-)

Love Hurts

It's 2 a.m. and I'm not even sleepy at all. anyway, don't be fooled by the title. this post has nothing to do with love.


just learned that Incubus' song Love Hurts is somewhere in the top 10 of billboard's modern rock chart this week. HELLO! That song is from the Light Grenades album and it's 2 years old.

It's also one of the band's suckiest songs in my opinion. Having that song out makes them compare more with bands like the click five or boys like girls rather than the foo fighters or audioslave. Having that song also makes them unfit to play european rock festivals (which they've been playing every year). As if the crowd needs more reasons to throw stuff and boo them. they should leave the whiny, cheeseball songs to the new bands.

How can you play right before Metallica or Rage with a song that goes "Love hurts but sometimes it's a good hurt and if feels like I'm alive... without love i won't survive".

Heck, I'm finding it hard to believe that this songwriter is the same one who wrote Megalomaniac.


Brandon, may I have a word with you?

haha ang hindi makatulog, nag-rant. I just hate to see my favorite bands deviate from the very reasons i liked them in the first place.

although there's really nothing we fans can do if the band we like wants to take another direction. they're going to find new listeners that will appreciate their music and we can turn attention to other bands as well.

crap crap crappy!!!

PLDT DSL sucks! I swear! in the morning, up until mid afternoon, connection is perfect... fast and then come night time, it just stops. so what if I'm this close to finishing my downloads? i'll try apain tomorrow?

i need my internet in the evening!!! it just doesnt make sense, lalo na pag weekdays because nobody's home during daytime to use the Internet. Wtf naman kasi. ugh.

(via mobile)

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Anyway, here's another something from Pareng Chuck:

"When you go out with a drunk, you'll notice how a drunk fills your glass so he can empty his own. As long as you're drinking, drinking is okay. Two's company. Drinking is fun. If there's a bottle, even if your glass isn't empty, a drunk, he'll pour a little in your glass before he fills his own.

This only looks like generosity."

--------> haha may kilala kong ganyan! and I'm not referring to myself :-)

Hysteria is just impossible without an audience.

I imagine myself being photographed in a studio.

The photographer in my head says: Give me patience.

Flash.

Give me control.

Flash.

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Let me tell you a story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world... well, not really.

*9 deleted paragraphs later*

I actually went out of my way to see how she was and asked if there's anything we should improve on to make things more efficient. She went to say her piece and I offered my perspective, too.

Afterwhich, I said, "I hope you understand where I'm coming from." And this girl I was talking to said, "No. I know where you are."

So now there's an issue? Well, I think I'm too old for your issues. Save the drama (for your mama).

This is on Multiply but not in Facebook.

Last week, we had the privilege of meeting (and sharing a drink with) Anthony Bourdain -- chef, writer, host and rockstar of the culinary world.

Extremely good-looking, charming, nice, smart and really funny. This didn't come up in the interviews he did here but have any of you seen the Romania episode yet? Freaky! He and his friend went to this creepy dracula-themed resto and they couldn't find anything good to eat. They also went to a cemetery where they write (and illustrate) the cause of death in the tombstones. Anobuzz. He also said that people there weren't friendly at all.

Talking about Lechon: "Pigs... they have a really sad life... The saddest lives. They're just ready to die!"

Hahahaha!

I gotta know what you think, so I can get you to think what I think.

The best way is not to fight it, just go. Don't be trying all the time to fix things. What you run from only stays with you longer. When you fight something, you only make it stronger.


Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

you, stupid shiny Volvo owner

I'll see you soon!!!

F1 will have a new champion this year.

Perhaps it's the year of historic milestones for black people. Obama could be the first black US President and Lewis Hamilton could be the first F1 champion. Then again, I'm rooting for Massa. Too bad, Kimi, I cheered for you!

Kimi Raikkonen’s battle with Robert Kubica was fought over more than just second place. Raikkonen was fighting to keep his championship hopes alive - and he lost.

Raikkonen is 21 points behind Lewis Hamilton with 20 left to be won this year. Thus his chances of retaining the crown he won in 2007 are over.

That means whichever of the remaining contenders wins the title this year - Hamilton, Felipe Massa or Robert Kubica - it will be a first time champion, and the 29th different title winner in the sport’s 59-year history.

I've always been a big Raikkonen fan dating back to the days when he was just beginning his career with McLaren and I was just starting to be fascinated by F1. Back then, he was just a newcomer who showed promise. Some people were quick to write him off, saying he was not as serious about F1 as the rest because of his unconventional and nonchalant attitude towards the sport. As he began to prove his mettle and earn his place at the podium in some races, he just couldn't win the championship for a lot of reasons. Sometimes, it was his own doing and most of the time, it was the car. He was always ALMOST there but never there. Frustration set in for the fans but I'm always rooting for the underdog. I'm probably one of the very few followers of Formula 1 who isn't a big Schumacher fan.

McLaren took really good care of him but he had to leave them. Nobody will ever be able to resist the opportunity to drive for Ferrari. Now we have a really good driver in a really fast car. In 2007, he finally got the championship albeit not so easily. But when the universe conspires, things fall into place and it just happens. This year, he tried again but guess it just wasn't his time again. It was back to the usual... just always ALMOST there. He made mistakes, his car wasn't in good shape, his teammate, Felipe Massa, just kept getting better, and the other cars and drivers were simply faster.

I remember when it was Michael Schumacher driving for Ferrari with Rubens Barrichello as support. Schumi didn't win every race and there were times when Barrichello was just better than him. There was this race (it escapes me which one) when they were #1 and 2 with Barrichello leading. At that time, Schumacher needed some points to secure the the driver's championship with just about 2-3 races to go (i think). If he won this particular race, he's a shoo-in for the championship. Barrichello was the man of that race, leading from the start. However, knowing that Schumi needed some points for the championship, they asked Barrichello to slow down as he approached the checkered flag to let Schumi pass him. How sad. Niluto. Barrichello had a career, too, you know. But he let him pass, for the sake of teammanship. They should've let Schumi work harder for that one.

Well, there was no such incident this year. Massa held his own against Raikkonen and they never figured in such a fixed strategy. I guess, all I'm saying is it was a fair fight. Kimi may have lost it at this point but I'm still a fan. And oh, I'm rooting for Felipe Massa and Lewis Hamilton. Fernando Alonso will never get my vote.